Memories

Have you ever had one of those nights where it's raining outside and you have nothing to do so you just listen to music in bed all day; depressing music to be precise. And a random song comes on and suddenly it brings back so many memories; memories that has been made a long time ago. Some memories can just make you smile out of nowhere. It brings happiness and smiles. It makes you realized what a great life you have, what a great memory you've made in the past. It made you thankful to have that memory. Such a shame that doesn't happen often though. The pouring rain outside just symbolizes the tears pouring from my both of eyes; tears that's coming from remembering the memories. This is the kind of memories that hurt. Memories that you wish you never had. You wish you could just delete but you can't and that's the worse thing about it. You want to forget about it but it haunts you everywhere you go. It can't go away because you've made mistakes in that memory and the sad thing is you can't change it, even if you want to, even if you try to. This memory only consist of regrets. You remember every single word that was said. Everything. Every single detail. Only if i did this, only if i did that, every single thing you could have done instead come to your head. Imagining if you said a different word, if you stayed there a little longer, if you talk more. It messes with your head. It then messes with your life. This really does hurt me sometime. Or is this just me?